It doesn't matter what you think
Whoa… OK, I know that sounds harsh. Especially for a girl who has craved approval her entire life. I don’t mean that to come off mean or hateful, but hear me out. I was a girl who couldn’t take rejection. I couldn’t take the thought I may not be someone’s cup of tea. I was defined by everyone else… everyone other than the ONE who should only define me.
I have been a believer for a long time, but Jesus became REAL to me about 4 months ago. In a way that I can’t really even explain. EVERY single big life-altering moment in my life has been sort of supernatural. Which I guess makes sense…. it is God and all. :)
I had spent years doing the whole “Christian” thing, but not obeying. I spent years showing up on Sunday to Church and then getting back to life things throughout the week. I believed in Jesus of course, but I wasn’t walking obediently with Him. The Bible became a checkbox on my daily list of things to do.. one that I would just do “because it was right”. I was happy, but not joyful. And yes… there is a difference.
In Him, I have found my worth & my identity and who I am again. My past doesn’t define me.
For a lot of people who are in my life, I have been very open about my past struggles and what our family has gone through. It is easy to criticize and I fully expected that when I made the decision to be so honest about it and to start the platform that I now have. But here’s the truth…. Everyone screws up. Everyone has dark skeletons in their closet. Everyone sins and everyone struggles and EVERYONE has a past. I just had the guts to come out and publicly own mine. LOL
Why? Because that past doesn’t define me. And I knew that God was going to give me a platform to display His redeeming love. I knew He was going to give me the chance to speak publicly about Him and for our marriage story to serve to encourage others that they can make it too. I knew that God had a plan for me that surpassed anything I could have ever achieved on my own.
I knew that God was going to use my “fall” to glorify Him, and that is what I will do. So yeah, when I say “It doesn’t matter what you think”, I don’t mean it to be mean or to be callous. I mean it all to say that I finally found myself… in the ONE who truly matters. I found my identity and who I am in Christ Jesus. His mercy and sovereignty in my life are something I will never grow tired of sharing. I love you all & am excited to walk this journey with you. Praying for you daily.
Luke 1:68-74
68 “Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel,
because he has come to his people and redeemed them.
69 He has raised up a horn[a] of salvation for us
in the house of his servant David
70 (as he said through his holy prophets of long ago),
71 salvation from our enemies
and from the hand of all who hate us—
72 to show mercy to our ancestors
and to remember his holy covenant,
73 the oath he swore to our father Abraham:
74 to rescue us from the hand of our enemies,
and to enable us to serve him without fear
